For 7 years I’ve asked God everyday to help me fall deeper in love with Him. He brought me to a point that He is more than enough for me. He made me realize that I don’t have to prove to the people around me (especially family) that marriage between two imperfect beings can be perfect and that a happy family (or good parenting) was not all about money, material things, or pleasing the kids but that it is possible for a family to genuinely love each other - no matter what - if Jesus is in the center. Although proving that would be ULTRA BLESSING and yes, I am looking forward to having my own ‘life-enemy and little cute red devils’!haha Just laugh don’t think! =D
So what I’m feeling today could be a test or a temptation or the start of something new (yack). If it’s a test I want to pass. If it’s a temptation I want to flee. If it’s just feelings of infatuation from watching High School Musical, somebody PLEASE give me a horror movie! The reason for my considerations, only God can truly know. I’m sharing this so that the people who love me can pray for me or save me.
There’s one thing I know for certain that this ‘love’ cannot happen now only God and time will tell if this feeling is really the beginning of a whole story made in heaven.
For now, I love You God and I will obey. I will not allow myself to get in Your way. Like in a triangle I’m still looking up to You while I pray for the other side (whoever she may be). Until the perfect time comes You’re still more than enough for me and to You I sing this song again O God search my heart, I want this burning desire surrendered to your perfect will.
All of You is more than enough for all of me
For every thirst and every need
You satisfy me with Your love
And all I have in You is more than enough…
I’m LOVESICK for You, my Savior.
